amedee's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Bored... Hey everyone. I'm very very bored right now. Ugh. My parents went out for dinner. So that leaves me hear all alone with no one to talk to. This would be a good time to start my Purpose Driven life...it would. I already practiced band music for a while on my clarinet. I love my clarinet. It's nothing special but I'm just happy I have one now. I went an added many diaryrings to my list since I was bored. Then I added people to my buddylist whose diaries i like. I read some devotionals byt Christy I think. Maybe I should do that. I really miss online bible study. :( I liked being there and I wish I would have participated more. Learned more. I miss it. I miss talking to Christians and having people to turn to online. Nicole showed me her diary today at Xanga. She doesn't seem like herself. She has changed and I'm worried. In her journal she hasn't even mentioned God and thats why I thought she started a journal, to spread the word. Oh well. The link to her diary is at the top of my friends list. I had to add it myself since she isn't at diaryland. I don't think that I ever wrote about this but it's something that made me feel like I am doing God' work and that from my appearance you can tell I'm a Christian and I love God. It made me feel so much better and less or a failure. When I was at Youth Group last Sunday, Deb (she is my youth pastor's wife, about 25 years old) said we could come up to her or Jim (youth pastor) and talk about anything that has been bothering us and talk about it after youth group was over because we had a little bible study on sin. I went up to talk to her about a friend of mine. What made me feel good about myself is when we got off topic and she told me about her first impression of me. SHe told me that her and Jim we happy to see me there becasue I wasn't acting like the rest of the kids. I wasn't laughing at sick jokes that some of them said and I was being seriou during prayer time and during the bible study. She said her and Jim we all excieted because they thought they had a "real christian". That made me so happy to hear that becasue I have always wondered if people could tell that I am a child of God. I noticed that when people swear in front of me they always turn around and appologize and if I accidently curse they look at me in shock and say they never thought I said those words. Last year someone asked me what i wanted to be when I grew up and I told her, then she said someone told her that i was going to be a Nun. I'm not even Catholic but I never really realized that I guess I do act like a Christian is supposed to act or dress or just be. I thought it was cool to realize that I have come a long when since I've been saved. If that is the reason why I have so few friends in my school, I don't know if really want any. I have one and I am content with that. Well I'm going to go busy myself doing something. Love you all who read my journal. God Bless. Blessings, Asho 6:50 p.m. - 2004-04-23 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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