amedee's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Day 4 and struggling, but I'm okay. Hey everyone. Can any of you explain to me how my life can get better and then everything just hurts. Like I started the purpose driven life and now my life has gotten so much harder, it doesn't make life better like I thought it would. You know what I mean? You think you are getting closer to God so things in life start to become smoother and they are easier to handle. Things have gotten harder. My mom is not helping at all. She doesn't understand that that book is a proccess..you read it over 40 days. She's acting all crazy to. Saying things that make no sense. It almost makes me want to put the book down or something. I know I can't do that. Would this make any sense? Is Satan trying to make me give up? I can make it 40 days. I'm not quitting. Anyways, besides the fact that I'm getting dicouraged everything else is fine. On Friday I'm scheduled to see my conselor. I'm happy to see her. I hope my mom doesn't forget about my appointment and lets me go. I got asked to pry for someone today. His name is Paul, he got stabbed yesterday by someone. My friend Amanda asked me to pray for him. So I am. If you could to that be sweet. :) You know what soneg i have stuck in my head? "He came form heaven to earth to show the way. From the earth to the cross, my debt to pay. From the cross to the grave, from the grave to the sky. Lord I lift your name on high. Lord I lift your name on high." I can't get it out of my head. We sang it in church on Sunday. Then my bus driver was singing it. Oh well...at least it's a good song. School was alright today. Blessings, Ashley 3:30 p.m. - 05.04.2004 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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