amedee's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Just talk and a prayer. YAY! It finally let me update. I've been trying for 20 minutes. I don't know where I got the never to get reviewed but I signed up for Rothe Review. *winces* I feel like I'm on display, especially when I whet to the site hoping that they just forgot about it. Then I find my name on the pending list. Ahh! Why do I do this to myself. Look! I have 66 hugs! Yay, I feel so loved. For all of you wondering what "amedee" really means check out my bio. I explained it throughly in there. So... umm.. check it out. The end of the year is nearing! I'm happy and sad. I'm happy I no longer have homework but I'm sad that I'm going to be so lonely all Summer. I hate being lonely. I'm going to live for youth group, church camp, and kingdom bound. I think I'm going to do one of those "101 things" list on my 101 entry. If I ever get there. I was reading my old journal again. I'm so glad all that drama about moving back to Ohio is over. I don't know how I survived. It's so pathetic how selfish I was being. Like a spoiled little child. It makes me sick. I wish I could erase all that. I'm so stupid. Father, please help me forget all the pain but let the results be a lasting memory so I don't so this again. Home will have to be bareable. I only have two more years at this school and I know I can make it alive. I don't need to be in Ohio to be happy. Through all this you've made me realize I'll never be happy anywhere on earth. I'm homesick for Heaven. Help me deal with my homesickness, it's over-whelming. I love you Lord. Thank you for this pain and this lesson. In your name. Amen. 11:34 p.m. - 06.04.2004 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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